Flower investigates the blanket flowers (Gaillardia).

I had a dream about Flower last night. It was an immensely sad dream. Maybe it was sort of a “do-over” dream. As usual, I can’t remember it exactly as it happened. I wasn’t somewhere I’m familiar with. At some point, I looked down and Flower was having a problem breathing. There was a blue “light” shining out of her nose, and I knew I had to rush her to get help. I picked her up and got in a car. I think my mother was driving, which is also surreal since my mother passed away last year after suffering from Alzheimer’s. Also, my mother didn’t drive for the last few decades of her life. I woke up while we were still driving, my beloved Flower in my arms. 

When I woke up, I felt the heaviness of her loss. All I could do was ask God to wrap me up like a warm sweater and comfort me. For all of you pet owners who have felt this same grief or who are going through it now, I feel your pain so deeply. Life goes on, but Flower, I wish you were walking through it with us still. 

Here’s one more picture of her, from several years ago, most likely anxious to get to the nature center and start that walk! Dottie is in the background.